Thanks guys... Sooooooper dooooper...

Anyways, I want to be a vampire... or maybe just know a vampire... goddamn... why can't they be real??? I want true blood to be real, with the synthetic japanese blood and the vapires coming out of their hiding... maaaaaaan... i would make an awesome vampire... i loooooove sleeping during the day and staying up all night partying...

And i like looking nice and seeeeeeexy... and pale with red hair is my fav look... dude, i'd make an awesome vapire... i've been practicing biting people (mostly my sister, she gets all angry when i do, dunno why)

altho... i'm not so fond of blood.. i love the color and how it aestethically looks on pale skin... but i hate the consistency and thinking about it... makes me kinda sick and faint... it's all greasy and thin... and smells funny... but looks beautiful... when i see blood i want to stare and run screaming at the same time... my period is a very hard time for me Kidding... Altho, i could do without the pains... not a pain in the ass, but a pain in the... yeah, you get the picture..

i've bought a tonne of books of amazon now... really many vampire books, but also a lot of comics and horror... i've also bought the satanic bible, should be an interesting read...

Anyway, on thursday i'm gonna go to town and buy some stuff after going to the dentist to get my inverted braces off my teeth and a clean of my mouth... maybe i should ask for getting them whitened a bit? My friends and parents say, that i have the whitest teeth they've seen, but i know they've become yellower that they should have, and they've been whiter, so i'm gonna ask how much it costs...

Anyhow, i'm gonna buy some stuff, like see through bh-straps, crimson lipstick, false eyelashes, some bronze rouge and other skin products, a new mascara and some lip gloss... maybe i'll go look at underwear too... i only own boxers atm, and i'd like to buy some neat panties, pretty ones that match my bh... maybe also some heals or stilettos, i don't have any pf those...

altho i should save my shopping for christmas for when i go to iceland (yes! i'm spending christmas in iceland! With some friends!) but i'm feeling good about myself for the time being, and i want to exploit that, i mean, i've been having depressions on and off for so long now, that now for the first time in MONTHS i've been having a clear mind for over a week at the time! It feels so good! I could sing! But i wont, because that's a horrible experience... For the listener anyway... So exploiting my good mood, i buy clothes and things i like, i dance with whomever i find attractive, and do what i please n__n it feels so freeing!

Anyway, i've realised that altho jocks (my friends and i like to call them the "energy-bar men") with their muscles, six packs and extremely well groomed appearance are hot as hell, they are extremely booooring... Give me a computer geek or musician any day... man... i have nothing to talk to them about... after exchanging the obligatory "you look nice, oh how interesting you don't go to school or work just play you sport and hang out at clubs." i have nothing to say or ask... why is it so abnormal for a girl to say "Hey, I love clothes, makeup and perfume, my favorite designer is Coco Chanel and I work out at least 40 minutes every day, but btw i spend hours on the computer drawing and surfing, i enjoy playing games on my gaming platforms and btw i play the guitat, ukulele and have many skills in the artistic department. OH and did i mention, that i read extremely much and have a shitload of films?"

I like being a geek with some class... if i can call it that... but it's friggin' damn hard, if not to say impossible, to find a guy with similar interests... Ok, not to begin a cry fest or anything, i don't have "find a boyfriend" on the top of my to-do list, not by far! I like being single and doing what i want to do without having to ask anyone for permission. But as i get older the demand from the outside world grows stronger and stronger. I mean, everytime you meet someone you haven't seen in a while they ask you the same question "so how have you been? Have you found a boyfriend yet?" Not if i've started school or gotten an education, helped the homeless, ANYTHING other than the omnipresent 'boyfriend question'. I always answer "No, i don't have a boyfriend." with a little smile, and then the conversation goes on, but the questioneer after getting this piece of information has a little smile on his/her face as if to say "oh, poor you".

It's not that i'm being paranoid, because after years and YEARS of getting this question i think i can decipher the body language, but seriously COME ON! Just because I'm a single 21 yr old it doesn't mean i'm a pathetic lonely old cat lady, just waiting to grow old alone and bitter. I'm enjoying my life! Please! Honestly, i don't really put that much emphasis on that part of my life AT ALL. I don't like talking about me getting a boyfriend, and i don't think people think i do either (liek to talk about this subject) and it's not because i'm affraid that i will end up alone or anything such, it's just because i. don't. care. Other things are much more important to me. So this will be he only time i'll ever really say anything on the subject, i've grown tired of trying to justify my decisions in this area or saying anything on the subject. The END.

So back to the real issue at hand here: Vampires and my wardrobe. I was thinking of going vintage-modern saturday, a twist of the 1920'ies mixed with some vampire schmexness. Like, the 20'ies hairdo, white pearls and a semi-vintage dress, strapless and a bit tight, tho not too tight and with a ruffled body. Crimson lipstick, voluminous black eyelashes and then comes my dilemma: Which shoes and what color eyeshadow? I have blue eyes, and red hair, and my outfit will be all black, maybe false leather leggins. Any suggestions on the shoes and makeup? I only own 3 pairs of shoes, so i need to expand that part of my wardrobe...

And then the vampires... Wouldn't it be awesome to find some underground vampire association in the faroes? Like [link] ? maybe if i go around with a sign at night that says "Bite me" then i'd get lucky? Then i'd only work the evening shift at work, and buy me a nice coffin to sleep in during the day.. bliss... i'd be a regular at the blood donor office... doing the opposite of the blood donors of course...

Anyway, my butt is falling asleep and i want to go lay in my bed and watch Heroes and maybe draw a comic or something else... So sorry my rant turned out to be so long. not. Sorry that is.

So, just imagine i said something deeply profound and significant and mildly funny at the end of this.

THE END.